Saturday, June 20, 2009

Spiritual warfare and apples

I realize how long it's been since I last posted. Well, things have developed since then. I believe that God is using me for greater things. At my workplace, the CF have launched the Alpha course! Click on that site and you will see the Alpha course at my workplace listed! The first session was incredible - there were lots of non-Christians and Catholics who came; the group leaders and I had very engaging discussions with them about who Jesus was. It was really exciting and I'm psyched about the next Alpha discussion!

Surprisingly, I ended up with a group of Catholics. I thought that I would get the non-Christians, as I usually evangelize to non-Christians during my Christian life. So, when I saw that everyone in my group was Catholics, I was a bit uncertain and didn't quite know how to tailor my discussion. But perhaps God has something to teach me. I'll need to pray a lot more for the Holy Spirit to guide me on how to minister to Catholics.

This week was the week where I launched the first Alpha session, and also had a cell visit to a cell member who had not been coming to cell. On Tuesday, I woke up and just threw up four times that morning. Subsequently, I felt really weak and had stomach cramps. Lost my appetite and every time I ate something, I felt like throwing up. My mum and John said it was spiritual warfare, and it felt like it, because I knew that I was at the point of taking one big step for God in my workplace and in cell.

I managed to survive the illness, though I had an appendicitis scare yesterday. Went to a hospital, and found out that I didn't have appendicitis after all. Whew! Of course, I incurred a hefty RM 500+ medical bill. There goes half my medical allowance for the year. Bugger. Pray that I won't fall ill till end of the year. Haha.

Just now at cell, I said that an apple best represented me. I chose the apple because an apple is a rather symbolic fruit (think of the fruit at the Garden of Eden and in Snow White's fairy tale) - I think I can be quite mysterious and recondite at times. Also, the apple's a rather tough and crunchy fruit. I believe I am a very determined character who pulls through things no matter what. Jin however said that an apple can be easily influenced by other things, like a worm worming into an apple. So, he warned me to be careful. And John said the same thing too; I gotta watch out for negative influences. Funny...I never thought of myself as a person who is easily influenced.

Written at 1:04 AM